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[Ryan Binns]

* Ryan Riley Binns !

* who i am

NAME: Ryan Riley Binns
AGE: Fifteen
OCCUPATION: Student
GRADE: 9th
CELEB: Ryan Ross

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HAIR: Dark brown
EYES: Brown
HEIGHT: Five foot six inches

* wha

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LIKES:

• Music
  
• Boys
  
• Tattoos
  
• Vintage
  
• Alcohol
  
• Photography
  
• Literature
  
• Writing
  
• Science Fiction
  
• Rainstorms
  

DISLIKES:

• Drugs
  
• Broken guitar strings
  
• Fakes
  
• Cheaters
  
• Homophobia
  
• Liars
  

FEARS:

• Being a failure
  
• Ending up alone
  
• Disappointing people
  
• Death
  
• Blood
  

GOALS:

• Be a successful musician
  
• Falling in love
  

PERSONALITY: Ryan is quite the character. He's very complex and deep. So we'll try to break this down in steps. In terms of friendships, he is very trustworthy, secrets are kept safe and sound with him. He's loyal to a certain extent, sometimes he becomes so wrapped up with himself, he doesn't see what he's really doing or who he could be hurting. Ryan is very devoted when he wants to be, and becomes quite detached if he doesn't. He's a trained professional when it comes to being a listener, and along with that can give out advice to his beloved friends. He makes sure that his friends really do know how much he loves them and sometimes tends to worry alot about what others think, constantly judging himself. Ryan tends to lean on his friends when he really needs someone there, not enough to call him needy but he's not completely independent. He use to be a very outgoing energetic person, but since the accident he's become anti-social. Preferring to hide from the world that hurt him so badly, instead of facing it.

Slowly though he's changing and coming out of his shell. Ryan has a problem of "jumping the gun", he tends to get caught up in things and doesn't think before he speaks landing him in a six foot hole before he knows it. But he isn't one to make excuses for his mistakes. Ryan above all is living in the past, stuck in what his life use to be and what he's lost. He's also very protective of his friends and will do what he can to make sure their not hurt in anyway. Ryan is also known to forgive way to easily, striving to mend relationships and afraid of losing someone again. When it comes to his love life, he'd be lying if he didn't say he's a little cautious of lending out his heart. But when he does fall in love he loves with everything he has and put that person above nearly everyone else.

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PARENTS: Brad && Bella Binns
SIBLINGS: Casper, Blaine, Fallon, Shannon, Dallas && Rowan
OTHER RELATIVES: None
AUTOBIOGRAPHY: Well Ryan Riley Binns began dying on August 10, 1994 to Brad and Bella Binns in the city of Phoenix. He followed up Casper and Blaine whom were his older twin brothers, and he was then followed by his four sisters Fallon, Shannon, Dallas, and Rowan. His family was huge as you could imagine. He grew up in the nice clean subdivision in a nice big house. His father was a lawyer, bringing home enough bacon so as that their mother could stay at home and raise their many children. Ryan started off as perfect as you could ever wish for.

Life at home was pretty sweet. It was one of those things when theres so many kids to keep up with, you really don't get much spotlight, which was okay by Ryan. He got his spotlight in other ways, more so with his besties. He was so energetic and care-free, and though he dressed like a little depressed emo kid, Ryan was far from one.

Nearly a year before he entered high school, living at home things were still pretty silver. Ryan soon found what would make things golden and better. He found love. Love came to him from a boy called Travis 'Sivart' VonDead. Ryan worshipped this boy. Sivart was the first guy that he'd ever felt attracted to, a feeling that would soon show him he wasn't as straight as he thought he was. Things went quite well for quite awhile, till Ryan started getting caught up with troubles going on at home.

For some reason his family was like at war. Well at least him mom and dad were. They were constantly yelling and bickering, and now with Casper and Blaine out of the house Ryan was the oldest brother of all of his siblings, thus giving him a major amount of responsability. His parents started getting on to him about doing everything, pick up his sisters, take them there, take them here, clean the house, go to the grocery, do this, do that. Ryan became so stressed he started .. cutting. In a way only another cutter would understand, it was just one of those things that released him.

This would be his secret. The secret of the happy energetic kid that was silently going into a depression. Well with all this added stress Ryan found it harder and harder to find time for Sivart. It was just to much to keep afloat and they grew slightly apart. In between that time, something happened. Sivart cheated on him with Laine Ever. One day Ryan and Siv met up to go to the movies, but before they could even get inside Siv confessed. Ryan was devastated and not saying a word walked off.

What happened next became the landslide of his life. Unable to handle anything else life could throw at him, he went home and cut. But this was deeper then he had ever dared to go. Soon he fell into unconsciousness drifting away into a distant memory. His mother was the first to find him on the kitchen floor, and in panic and shock she killed herself taking a bullet to the temple she ended her life not knowing Ryan was still alive, barely but he was. When his father came home only minutes after, he went crazy but managed to call 911. There they saved Ryan but prounced his mother dead.

If you could only imagine the horror Ryan woke up to find when he finally awoke in the hospital bed. If he could have he would attempted sucide again, but under sucide watch that wasn't going to happen. His father was furious and showed his depression angrly. He found out through Ryan's phone which he had plently of time to go through each text that Ryan had a boyfriend, not a girlfriend. His father was a homophobe and clearly expressed his dismay for finding out his son was gay. That day his father disowned him. Doing him one last favor and that was to send him off to a sucide rehab therepist center far from Phoenix, before taking all of Ryan's sisters and himself away never to be heard from again.

Ryan basically disappeared. Being seperated from his friends and anyone familar he went crazy. Literally. Being locked up in padded rooms and having some dude try to pick your brain apart for 'therapy' really got to him. He started picking up some symptons from his traumatic experience. Things like Claustrophobia from being in the small rooms for some many hours a day, Paranoia, Depression, Insomnia, and even started having small halucinations of his mother's ghost. This lead to a mild case of Skitzophrenia. Ryan was to put it bluntly. Fucked.

But he eventually figured out how to get out of the place. He would fake his cure. He knew he could never really get over some of these things and being locked away would never help him. So pretending to get better he some how managed to convince them to let him return home. Well to Phoenix anyway. He had no home anymore. His father and siblings had left him.

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ROLEPLAY SAMPLE: [One of my kind of older samples. I've been off role playing for several months so I have nothing new -.-]

It was quite a glorious day in taking a walk around the Hogwarts grounds. Since the seventh year was unable to fall back asleep and staying in your Common Room for hours waiting for people to wake up, was just too boring for Cerberus. He wasn't one to wear his robes at all anymore, he only wore them for classes and that was it. So he pulled on a bright blue shirt with a little drawing of a rather happy looking cloud and a sun behind it, on the bottom left hand side. And a pair of black tight jeans, followed with a white studded belt around his waist. Slipping on his red Converses. Grabbing his wand from sitting on his bed and stuffed it down into his back pocket before heading out of the Slytherin room.

After walking for a few minutes already around the grounds, he was getting even more bored than he had been in his common room. Cerberus shortly came across a Puffskein, that more than likely had gotten away from it's owner and wondered out towards the woods, a slight smirk crossed his features. Now he wasn't about to harm the little thing, too much. A great way to practice some spells that he'd be lagging in, of course only the simple spells, nothing beyond complicated. Pulling out his wand and pointed it down to the creature, before muttering; "Confundo." Poor little thing become more dimwitted than it already was.

Preforming a few more spells on the little pet, Cerberus finally gave a quick flick of his wrist to cast his last spell. "Duro!" He exclaimed, the adorable Puffskein turning into stone. Chuckling to himself before pushing his wand back into his back pocket and picked up his stone prize, maybe he'd reverse the charm and keep it as his own pet, but for now he'd leave it as stone. Starting back on his walk once more as he tossed the stone creature up in the air a few times, catching it each time, almost missing at times too.

Approaching the Whomping Willow, and stared at the plant thrashing about. He was quite tempted to take a trip down to Hogsmeade for the day, but with what? He had so little money right now anyways, so that idea seemed to have a dim light around it. Setting down his stone Puffskein onto the ground, letting his piercing blue eyes travel over to the tree in front of him. Why not try one more spell? One way that he felt like stopping the tree from moving around, hitting the knot on the Willow. It wasn't too hard to find a twig laying around on the ground, now all he had to do was aim it properly to hit it.

Removing the wand from his back pocket once more and flicked it in the direction of the small branch before murmuring, "Wingardium Leviosa." The twig flew into the air as he moved his wrist to direct it. The boy's good vision came in perfectly at that moment, spotting the knot and caused the stick to sail straight into it, causing a pause in the tree's tantrum. Slipping his wand back into his pocket before bending over to grab the stone creature that he previously set down, at last making his way towards the Willow.

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NAME: Amanda
AGE: Seventeen
EXPERIENCE: Almost eight years
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